It happened. It was bad. 15 pages of equations that were downright wacky and really really strange compared the class notes I studied.
Suffice to say - I failed. Definitely. I am praying and praying that God grants me grace and a C in this class. I am not a math person, but that has not stopped me from trying with everything in me to earn a passing grade. The professor knows that if I don't pass his class, I lose my acceptance to medical school. But the kicker is -I have to trust that it is God's plan for me to go in order for me to sleep at night trusting that I will be "gifted" a C. Confused yet? Because I am still crying. Yeah - this is just another challenge in the life of Allison. Sorry to sound jaded, but sometimes I just want something to come easy. Everything I have done in the last two and a half years has been "the hardest thing I've ever done." I'm so so tired. Sometimes I just want something to come easy. Last semester I struggled in particles, electron movement, electricity and all things Physics 2. Not to mention I juggled taking the MCAT for the same time. I got a B in Physics and a 29 on my MCAT. Both feats I am proud of since my section totals for everything but the Physics and Gen Chem sections were off the charts (that Physical Sci section actually is the reason my score wasn't higher) and I got a near perfect writing score. (Yeah - I don't really try hard with this blog - sorry.) The Air Force thing has also been stressful, but exciting. I really really want a really long nap. I'm frankly exhausted. And I'm terrified. Terrifed and exhausted.
Geez, this is a fun post.
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Oh, honey I feel for you. I totally know how you feel, not with school, but in another aspect of my life - trying to get pregnant, then staying pregnant, then dealing with preemies. Every step I told myself was "my cross to bear" and then I'd be hit with another obstacle. I totally understand wanting something to just come easy. It will, keep your faith and keep trying. Keep us posted on the math deal.
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